Tears Roll Down My Cheeks

Finally i can let out my anger and sadness through crying.
I was crying a few seconds ago.
Now, my eyes feel like closing . Whatever.
I feel so aloneee . gosh. Why am I the target to be scold??
What did I do wrong??? I am not a bad person. So why people keep scolding me?

Here's the story : A few days ago my mum told me that we will go to a kenduri today. And then two days ago my mum said we dont have to go. so okay la. i woke up late this morning at 10.30am. and i thought we're not going. and no one told me what time we're going or no one woke me up. i was clueless. and then i eat n bathe as usual. n then after bathing i ask my mum what to wear. then all of a sudden my mum raise her voice said 'pakai je la baju pape, masih nak tanya mama lagi' and when she looked at me still wearing a towel, she was exploding and said ' CEPAT siap ! .. kena tinggal kangg' (stress on the 'cepat') . and i was like wtf ? in my heart la ofc. so i pick a baju kurung . and then i tried to wear contact lense but that stpd thing wont go in my eyes. so everyone was downstairs , in the car. n i hate to rush so i just said i dont wanna go. so then i cried cos no one wants to pujuk me n all. what kind of family i have?? my father being so quiet, my brother's uncareness, my sister's whateverness n my mother's madness, who's gonna take care of my back? i mean i love them all but i jz feel so left out. d odd one out. so alone. n ,y friends doesn't even care. if i told them they would probably say, "hekeleh..apelahh....." . GAHHH!! sabrina je yg kesah. tp x nk kcu die. and bsides, i wanna b alone now. only music can cheer me up now.
i dunno how to describe the people i wanna be with. no one cares . i'm not famous. i'm not like hanna cos wherever hanna goes , people will like her and wanna b with her. cm van and alyssa la, i noticed. yes, im a bit jealous. i want a friend that noticed if im gone and always looking for me.. and this ends up to the memories i had with iman. she is one of the BEST friend i ever had. but i have no idea what's goin on with her rite now. is she avoiding me? haihh. y must things change?

guess im born to be alone.

cheers with tears,
diyana :'|

Merdeka Celebration !

I am going to write in Manglish due to Merdeka . hahah

Friday 290808, hari yang gilegila bessssss ! at school, there was a special assembly to celebrate merdeka on the last two periods. So we form2 and form1 gathered at the dewan ilmu (what a suckish name) . anyway, there were performances . it was boring a bit . then, there was prize giving for the most decorative class. my class, 2 doritis won the 3rd place. okay laa kann. agak cntk kelas kami tapi th ceiling is empty.

Anywhooooooooo, the best fun part was when we sang the patriotic songs. GILA SEMANGAT PATRIOTIK ! my friends and I went at the back to get some air cos it's hot so a lot of the form2 followed us. so we sang the songs really LOUD . and we like jumping jumping and whooping whooping. hahahah . funfun. ally was so crazy . she melebeh lebeh rapping pulak. hahahha. but kalo form1 pon bersemngat joib skali lagi lah bes . and cikgu pun lg supporting kan bes jugak. asyik nak marah je cikgu. ish. and then ble habes nyanyi, nk encore tp tade. so we sit down to wait our turn to go home. and then the guys shouted MERDEKA! n the girl shouted MERDEKA! n then the boys, and then the girls, and so on.... when we were heading towards the gate pon kteorg shouted MERDEKA cm tadi mase ddk. gilaaa semangat wooo.

This day was the MOST memorable day of the year. i will never forget this day. If only boleh bawak camera kan bes . ish.

isnin ini PUASA!!! i suka tau. hahaha. n bulan puasa nak test hanna supaya tidak mencarot. bahahah. torture die. xD

goodnight! xoxo

Rain Bathing (:

Yesterday was a rainy day. All evening. It was cold n windy. It's so really nice to see. And to imagine what it is like to kiss in the rain. ahhh.

Recess, I ate in the canteen. I ate near the rain. so after eating, I wanted to touch th rain although i'm a quarter wet. and then, WHOOSHH! . Khairul pushed me into the rain. I was freakin wet . head to toe. back to front. i was so mad. but then , i think, it's kinda fun showering in the rain. But it would be MORE FUN if my best friends join me too. Aliya did cos khairul n I pushed her too. haha.

Well, that's the highlight for yesterday. We'll see what will happen today at school

gtg!

xoxo

Numero 27 (:

Yeserday, school was normal. homeworks n all. blabla. oh and aliya didn't wear tudung. but i think today she will. hahah.

On the 25th of Agust was my mother's birthday. My family and I celebrated it on Friday 22nd agust just because my sis wants to eat the cake. My mum was sick though. She didn't eat the cake at all, i think. Here's the video i recorded -->

#26

I come to realize that my blog baru je number 26. so little. haha. yesterday, school was quite funny. hahaha . i cut my hair. well, that's not the highlight. here's the story. Since, aliya straightened her hair, she cant tie her hair. and she wears tudung. so she complaints that she felt so hot (as in panas). so, when BM subject, alyssa just pull her tudung off. and she just didn't wear it until after recess. what a brave girl. so most of the form 2 students was like, whoooooo ! "asal bukak tudung" etc.. and there came tasha . she said "ceh aliya dah luruskan rambut tak pki tudung tros" . and then khairul, her soon-to-be bf (hahah) , keep touching her hair. it was annoying yet cute . so funny! but unfortunately, she had to wear her tudung back cos after recess was agama and she doesnt has name tags on her baju kurung. And she didn't bring scrunchies to tie her hair. oh well, i dunno if she is going to wear her tudung or not today. we'll see later.

merdeka is coming up! 31st august . and puasa the very next day. wow.

well gotta get ready for school . -,-

xoxo didy

Alaaaaaaaaaa

holiday is almost over! Nooooooooooooo
My folio geo blom siap..
ade h/w tak siap cos tataw n mls..
n i just hate to go back to that damn suckish schl.
gahh!

on the bright side, i'm going to cut my hair 2mrw! that is if my mum is feeling better. she is sick since yesterday . poor mama
her birthday is this monday but the cutting cake ceremony was yesterday. my sis jz cant wait to eat the cake. terrible right?
My dad, sis n I went to subang parade yesterday to buy mama a set of dolce & gabbana perfume as a present. i wanted to by mama a bracelet cos evry year we bought perfume. sooo tired of it. but its D&G , how can you not buy it? xD

now im so bored, im using my dad's laptop . and hopefully later i'll use the family laptop which my sister is using so dat i can finish up my geo project. haishhh . i hate to do it but i have to.
ughhhh

more updates soon!

xoxo didy xoxo

A day at Hanna's house

Today I went to hanna's house. We were actually planning to complete our geography folio but we were distracted by the attraction of myspace, youtube and the most popular camera . xD . we watched 27 dresses . Katherine Heigl was so pretty. most of the day we vain a lot so, yeah.

Holiday Pics & video!

Holiday news!

Tuesday , 190808
i had FUN ! syaza came to my house that morning. the fun part was in the evening where syaza and I went for a cycling adventure. The adventure was followed by aliya too. Here's how our journey went. First, syaza and I went cycling around my house area and went to the nearest playground. We rest there for a few minutes and then we felt bored. So, we decided to go to aliya's house. Luckily, she's in. This is, btw, my first time cycling that far. When we reached at al's , we went in her house and up to her room. I get to see her new guitar for the first time ! It was beautiful! Then we online for a while and talk. Oh did I mention that syafik was there too ? (just to make hanna jelous xp) . So then, we want to go cycling some more. And that's when aliya tag along. She borrowed her brother's bike cos hers was really old and needed to change the tyres. Anyway, syaza wants to see our school cos she has moved to klang. And so we went to school with me leading the way. (i'm a good planner n kinda bossy, in a good way) . We cycled around doritis / liparis area . n we also went to see syaza's ex-house. ahahaha. We also went to padang liparis n played n vain for a while. There, we saw aiman , firman n some other guys too. We were enjoying the scenery and it was already almost six. So we went back to al's, with me leading again. XD . Syaza and I told aliya that we were going to go to One Utama the next day and she decided to follow us back to my house to sleepover. So I helped aliya to pack her stuff by ordering. Like I said, I'm good at planning. Heheh. Since, syaza and I came to her house using bicycles, she had to walk and sit on syaza's bike. She's afraid to sit together with me cos I ride like a drunker. hahahah. It was really nice going up and down the hill. Windy. It's a good thing we got to my house in one piece.

Wednesday, 200808 (today)
Aliya suddenly felt sick and couldn't join syaza and I to One Utama. So both of us went there with my brother and his friends . My driver drove us ofc. So, when we got there, syaza and I went to buy tickets for a movie. We watched Meet Dave. But before that, we ate lunch at Shakey's Pizza. Yumm. After watching the movie, syaza's bf wanted to see her for the first time which means they coupled through cellphones which is a very BAD thing to do. I thought her bf, Aiman was thin and quite okayy when i looked at his photos. But whooaaaaa, he is so far from what i thought. well, not very far. He was less good looking then i saw in his pictures and he was quite FAT. Big size. Not huge though. So we walked awkwardly. And I wanted to buy an ice cream. Baskin Robins. Then, I wanted to sit down. So, syaza n aiman decided to, um , leave me for a moment and went to have a private time 2gether. Blegh! Poor me. Curse you aliya for not coming. So i waited, and waited and waited. While I waited, I called aliya cos i was so damn bored. I talked talked talked. When, syaza and aiman came back, I saw this awesomely CUTE guy. His hair was black n was wearing brown jeans i guess and black tee. He looked like skandar keynes+nicholas braun+the guy who act at little miss sunshine. My mind was totally switched on him. At first, I didn't do anything stupid so we walk around and around. Then, I saw him again. So I beg syaza to help me follow him. Just for fun and delight. Hahaha. We seriously followed him everywhere he went. But hoping he doesn't realise we're following him. He was alone and was carrying this cup of drink all the time. which make it so awesome. i wanted to say hye but i'm such a coward. And there's this point where i failed, and i lost him. It's like he vanished. So i gave up. Disappointment in me. Until now, I cant stop thinking bout him. haihhhh. Syaza went home just now . I still think yesterday was more fun then today. Oh and the sleepover is canceled cos dny n farah couldn't go. hmph.

that's it for now. will put pictures and video really soon.

love,
didy xoxo

Daradude

IBM Club 70's Retro Dinner 2008

Last night, Saturday 160808 , there was a dinner party (as stated at the title) . It was kinda awesome . It's my mum's company dinner so mostlythere's adults. My family, maid, aunt Mak Mok n cousin kak gg went together. My other cousin kak zurin works at IBM so she was also there too with her sister ira. We're the only family who brought kids (actually kids aren't allowed but wtv) . The theme was the 70's . I wore a polka dot bubble dress with leggings and silver peep-toe heels. Accessories were a pair of earrings, watch n handbag.

The food was like a Chinese dish. sooo many meal . I eat almost each meal except the prawns cos i dont want my hands to get dirty. The desert was interesting . It is ice cream mango . vanilla ice cream+mango juice i think. it's a good thing there's chinese tea cos i love chinese tea.

There were also performances like singing , dancing n even a small act. the act was the funniest. It was about how the people started dancing: it is because of one cockroach . have u heard of it?
There was lucky draw too. We one a set of juice blender n coffee maker but we don't really need it so we gave it to our aunt Mak Mok. The Grand prize was a plasma TV but we didn't get it . sobsob

After the dinner we decided to go to euphoria which is only next door. (the IBM gave the ticket for free) . but unfortunately we didn't go in cos a) it is 21+ and b) most of us r tired . i wanted to go in but once i was righ at the entrance, i feel so ... so... yucks.blegh.lets go home. hahahaa .

Today, i'm just stayin home. 2mrw, i'll be sitting for my piano theory exam grade 5 ! wish me luck !

xoxo didy

Happy Holidays !

This grey colour font is copied as my braces colour. xD

On Wednesday , there was a special assembly . It is a time for the discipline teacher, Pn. Sangeetha to warn us about some stuff and embarrassed some undisciplined girls (yes, girls) to stand in front of every evening session people which they deserved it. Moreover, they are Muslims. What a shame. Tsk tsk.

On Thursday , I FINALLY finished my KH project . I was proud of my hard work and hopefully i get an A.

On Friday , it was the last day of school for this semester. Starting now, it's school holiday ! woohooo ! Shopping time !
and on Monday, my piano theory exam. ):

guess what guess what . I IMed he-who-must-not-be-named (certain ppl know) and here's the convo:

ME : ola
HIM: wtf . can u get me out of your MSN . NOW!!
ME : what's your problem?
HIM: fuck off . brown ass . ( and so on his craps) . who are you?
ME : I am a human.
HIM: human my ass la.
ME : seriously , why so serious?
HIM: fuck you .

and he offline. or maybe he blocked me. watever. i have no idea what's that guy's problem. I seriously didn't do any violence towards him and he smashed me just like that. The boiling part was he said I'm brown ass. SO RACIST! nak belagak putih! pfft. I have no idea why he hates me, why he said bad words to me. I dont bother him much these days, I just have a tiny crush on him that's fading from time to time. I thought i'm a friendly, caring person. I wanna meet different people and he's a mix of chinese n spanish. Is it wrong to know about someone's culture or personality. I guess his personality is HARD-BOILED-EGG. I just want to know WHAT DID I DO WRONG?? That is all . and he treat me like shit. go to hell you suck ass. trust me, you will.

PS: Hoping I'll get a better private school next year where there's no arrogant people.

-xoxo didy

Singers / Bands I love

* will upload more soon (;

xoxo

lalala . music in the air

I Love Music .
Music is my life .

last night, Saturday 020808 , i watched MTV asia awards on TV. It was freakin awesome. Jared Letto (or is it Leto?) was so cute. the click five was sooo awesome . and i love the PROJECT E.A.R. Too bad i wasn't actually there. Leona Lewis was really beautiful and she won the Breakthrough artist. One republic performed too. I just cant believe they were performing at Genting Highlands in Malaysia, my country . wow.

And guess what, my two 'best friends' secretly did a sleepover without even TELLING me . Aren't BFF's suppose to tell each other EVERYTHING? I'm so bummed. I just found out about it last night in one of them's blog. (not gonna put names here) . GAHH!!

Anyone, if u know any nice private school in KL or Selangor which have FRIENDLY and NOT-SO-SECRETIVE people in it, DO tell me .

that's all the buzz.

xoxo